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i havent updated in years again. it doesnt matter because theres hardly nething new. but since im not going to school rite now, i need to write some shit down before i become retarded because i smoke entirely too much weed.

with that said, i have a pretty interesting topic of discussion. this is for you people out there that'll never make nothing of yourself, live a mediocre life, and then die after a meaningless life. the only people that will show up at your funeral will probably be those closest to you:  your family and a few friends. and who'll remember you after you die?? your ancestors at most. and no one else.

do you know why this is going to happen? its because the dream has died. either people pursue extraordinary dreams by lying to themselves that they can make it, or people have no dreams at all. and the most common problem nowadays are these dreamless people. they sit around all day and do nothing. or even worse, their life is such a routine that they'll be doing the same thing 20 years from now: have a job, keep a job, support a family, have kids to leave a part of you behind. are u kidding? i dont have to make this another religion based topic but what if there is no religion? that equals no heaven, no hell. which basically means that when u die, u die.

so is it hitting you yet? you know all those people that say: "ill try..." or those people that have a natural talent at everything they do but once they get remotely good at it, they just brush off a, "i dont do it nemore because it got boring." wake the fuck up.

heres my message for the person who says "ill try." either do that shit rite or dont do it. whats the point of trying? your just wasting energy. every time you do something there is a 50/50 chance that u'll either do it rite or you'll do it wrong. whats the fucking point in trying. lemme give you an example to paint a clearer picture: theres a basketball game. the people runnin only have 9 people. your standing on the sideline. they look at you and say," ey you wanna run?" and you bust an, "ill try." if i were the one asking id smack u in the face and tell you to sit your ass back down. why? if ur going to ball, arent you gonna run? and your gonna sweat. and most likely your gonna handle the ball or even shoot it. so why waste ur time to suck at it and then say, "well at least i tried."

n then theres the people who are just good at anything. but they never make the extra effort to be the best. in my logic, if your actually good at something, shouldnt you try to get even better at it? doesnt it extend your chances of possibly being the best at it? if you havent noticed, this strange place called america provides money for any ridiculous talent. you can have the strange ability to shoot your sperm about 5 feet and people will clap their hands and pay to see you do it. so take advantage already.

everyone has a talent, nourish it, and go make something of yourself already. if you have time to read this, you have enough time to be somebody. 

i forgot xanga exists. i cant sleep at 6 whatever the fuck it is in the morning so imma write a lil before i drop retarded.

3 months since the last entry and ive had so much to think about. i think the most important thing ive noticed is the influence of people on your life. whatever u see, whatever u hear, the conversations you have, each word uttered from your mouth, the way u look at people, the way they look at you, affect you. you might not realize this at the time but the people who surround u mold you into what u are. its kinda like a canvas of white paper that represents your life. people come and go as they please leaving little marks here and there. then when u die, the whole canvas becomes a masterpiece for people to step back and look at what u've become and what they'll remember. every individual contributed in building an accurate description of who u are (this is my idea, if i see this shit somewhere with someone claiming that they came up with it imma beat some ass). So think about this the next time u meet someone and decide that they can take part in your life. life isnt a popularity contest. even though its nice to be acquainted with alot of people and to surround urself with a diversity of personalities, be careful who comes into your life. the simplest words can affect you as a person. havent you noticed that a simple 'love you' and a 'fuck you' can completely change the outcome of your day? so it matters, even for billy bob who daily says 'hi' to you every time u see him because u never know whats going on inside his head. is he really just being nice saying hi to you all the time? or is he secretly admiring you? or is he just some punk ass waiting to do some scanless shit while u put ur trust in him? fuck them drama bringers, fuck the simple-minded, fuck the ignorant, fuck the haterz, fuck the stalkers, fuck the gossipers, fuck the back-stabbers, fuck the fakers, shieet fuck em all. anyone that disrespects you deserves to have their face graveled over and over. and this should be the same to anyone that disrespects the people u care about. you dont have to be all analytical with who u choose to know. you know yourself better than anyone else will. so evaluate who u get to know the next time you get introduced or when u introduce urself. you never know if this will be someone worthy of gaining your love, or someone who's greatest accomplishment will be ruining your life.

its funny how easily you can get stuck. things get comfortable, everything seems like a joke, u feel like no one knows nething better than u do. u dont want things to change.

and then reality slaps u in the face. things do change. people change. u change. and suddenly things become biased. either you've found your way out of your hole, or u remain in the same place until everything else changes around u - ultimately getting left behind.

who's to say what's real? can u really believe everything u hear? is something true because u hear it from a professional?? how can someone argue something based on what they've heard. the key to knowledge is to be informed. the more u actually know the more people will actually listen.

i`ve found flaws in many things lately. religion, life, and death are based on what people dont know. religion since the core religion of the us is christianity, lets discuss the most obvious flaw: how could a perfect God create an imperfect creation? if God is perfect, than how does he know what imperfection is??? one of the biggest flaws within christianity.

AND christianity is a faith based religion. one must believe the teachings of the bible in order to achieve salvation. the two go hand in hand. BUT God didnt write the bible, the scripture reads "and man who was inspired by God wrote as God spoke to him" (this is paraphrased from the actual scripture which i will update with the exact verse if someone wants me to be professional) who's to say that man wasn't trippin on acid thinking he was inspired by God?? where did the bible come from?

AHHH my focus wasnt to target christian lifestyles or to disprove their teachings. it was just one of the many flaws ive noticed within religion and i've strayed from my topic.

anways: whether it's a simple physical change or a mentality change, people constantly complain about what needs to be different. but one of the biggest flaws of mankind is laziness. people cant change if they dont try. which is why some things will never change.

there's this anonymous kid on my chatterbox whos been talking big because hes been anonymous talking all the shit he wants. but i found out something about u, u fucking dumbass. everyone look under my profile to my chatterbox. see where he uses my name and starts being preschool with his jokes? if u look under that chatterbox post, an anonymous person says : LMAO !! as if someone actually came to my page and thought it was funny. heres the funny part. if u click both names, u find that both of their ips are the same. if u dont know what this means, it simply says that both chatterbox entries are from the SAME PERSON. that means this guy is so much of a loser that he laughs at his own internet jokes. wow, get some friends.

AHAHAHA thought u were slick, im catching onto ur bitchass, i already know ur from arcadia. broomboy-killer let it go. i cant wait to catch ur ass slipping

edit: since people have been using my chatterbox lately, i copy n pasted the original post so u guys can see it. hint: look at the IPs. and if u dont believe it, click the little book on my chatterbox and look at page 4.